First Sight and Second Thoughts, that’s what a witch had to rely on: First Sight to see what’s really there, and Second Thoughts to watch the First Thoughts to check that they were thinking right. Then there were the Third Thoughts, which Tiffany had never heard discussed and therefore kept quiet about; they were odd, seemed to think for themselves, and didn’t turn up very often. (Wintersmith by Terry Pratchett)
In 1999 I started on what would end up being a BA in culture and society = 2 years of psychology and 1 year of sociology. Until that time I had lived uncomfortably with my worldviews and life. Throughout the study-years I learned about the processes that interfere with being able to see reality. Cognitive dissonance and the mob effect are the ones I am best able to recognize in my own lives.
From what I can see the world, in general, is ruled through mob rule. Very few of us sit back and take time/have time to reflect on how our neighborhoods, cities, countries or the world have come to be the way they have. Social influences are ignored because our lives run smoother that way. Our own choices are rationalized with whatever thought-exercise we need to justify whatever it is we have done/are doing/are about to do. Myself included.
Becoming handicapped in a manner that leaves much time for thought and reflection has brought with it a lowering of my personal physical quality of life. In many ways it has forced a heightening of my mental quality of life (although my emotional one often takes a hit). Now I find myself having to ask both second and third thought questions.
Sometimes when we ask questions, the answers we find are neither pleasant nor pretty. People in general, myself included, do not seem to want to understand just how greatly our own values undermine the existence of mammals (humans included) on Earth. My own country is very much part of this destructiveness.
This is the world as I see it:
Realizing, accepting and internalizing that humans make up a tiny fragment of the world is one of my permanent goals. It is in seeing myself as part of the in-group “residents on Tellus”, rather than human/mammal/animal, that motivates me to work harder for continued life on earth, even if that life ends up being without humans.